ANC Elite Must Fall

It is sad for me to have to write this as some of the people I am talking about I refer to as Aunt and Uncle in my private spaces. The ANC elite….wow, you have pulled quite a number on us. Now that you guys have sorted yourselves and your children out now suddenly you don’t remember struggle? Just because you have your fingers in the pie you have no interest in changing the status quo for black people?

We should have known when white capital teamed up with you, we should have known that they were giving you a taste so you could get drunk.

You negotiated in Codesa so you know full well that in those talks you did not get the economy back. What that means is that you have essentially failed black people in this country. We sent you to speak for us and you came back with nothing but coins in your individual pockets. Not only were you bamboozled but now you continue to do the gate keeping for white capital.

Fees Must Fall is not your business because quite frankly…like white people, you took the money and ran. You can afford education to an extent where you can educate your children overseas. Although you have surrounded yourselves with yourselves, I can assure you that basic education is not a basic thing for the average family. Because you have failed to address minimum wages, our people are still suffering.

Uncle Gwede your comments were horrendous. They were vile and they spoke from a place of privilege. We see reports in the papers with your children busy squandering money: you are therefore in no position to even have an opinion.

Unlike you the ANC elite, people on the ground do not have money and they are making it clear that they cannot afford free education.

If you were half the freedom fighters you say you are you wouldn’t be threatening students, you would be going back to those Codesa talks. Instead of using dirty apartheid tactics on students, you would have the guts to address white capital monopoly playing out in our economy. There are people in this country who get paid R30million/month while the people who work for them can’t afford education. That is absurd.

It’s nice for you to sit in your nice homes and speak your nice English as long as it is not your children who will be affected.

We are not stupid, of course we know that the destruction of school property is nothing less than ignorant, but do you understand the pain of frustration till your mind explodes? No you don’t, because most of you are illegally obtaining tenders and funding based on your networks.

Bantu abadala you have shown us greed in a manner we never thought we would see from our own parents. It has been a shame filled experience to watch you deal with Fees Must Fall. You have shown us that you are greedy cowards who are unwilling to stand up for what is right.

Your people have been wronged, you are in a position to take on white capital and set some rules, but you are out here protecting your comfortable privilege.

For a change….make yourselves worthy leaders and address fees must fall without shooting children.


#PearlThusiDay vs #WinnieMandelaDay

My spirits were so deflated this morning when I woke up to #PearlThusiDay. I have spent a lot of this year of revelations, looking forward to Winnie Mandela Day. We have taken so many days for men to celebrate them, we have even taken imaginary easter bunnies and given them a day too. It seemed logical to me that SA was finally getting to a space where black consciousness was starting to come to the forefront. I was under the impression we were at place where we wanted to know our own stories and heroes. I thought we were ready to unpack our heroes. 26 September was a great opportunity for us to start somewhere. We know Winnie Mandela, we know that her journey has affected us ALL. Her fight and marketing of the ANC and the Mandela name is the reason we are where we are today. Many names have been forgotten and unsung but we know Winnie Mandela because we actually watched her walk through fire…..and unapologetically so.


So when I woke up this morning and SA twitter had turned 26 September to Pearl Thusi Day I was taken aback and quiet saddened. Indeed we should celebrate Pearl’s new job, it is always wonderful when a woman gets blessings because it inspires other women too. Pearl is making young girls realise that anything is possible. And we celebrate the swelling of her bank account. Indeed Well Done Pearl…but to take away the historical significance of this date and give it away to holiwood is really something quite, hard to swallow. You have just taken away a day where we could actually learn Winnie Mandelas truth….we have been inundated in bad PR about her ALL our lives. Finally we are in a position of power where we can force this day in our favour by unpacking a powerful woman and moment in our history. What do we do? We give it away to holiwood. Wow guys. Guys.


It is so sad to watch us erase our own stories and ignore our own greatness. None of us can deny the force and impact this woman has done for this country. The world over knows Winnie Mandela. We have this woman, right here in our backyard and we fail to pay homage? Wow.


Like most great people the mother of the nation has faced great opposition….and that is precisely how we know she is great. Winnie Mandela has faced violence on her and her family like no one else in this country. They repeatedly oppressed and abused her for all those 27 years and before. Some ran to exile but Winnie stayed. When freedom came, some moved to Sandton, mama Winnie stayed with her people in Soweto. This story needs to be unpacked, there is much more to this than Stompies murder and also much more to the real story behind that murder. We have never allowed mama Winnie to speak for herself so we cannot claim that we have concrete facts.


I am just sad I guess, that South Africans would rather give this day to an American TV show…than own up to their greatness.

Also, we are always speaking about being ‘woke’ lately….I would think being woke is part of freeing ourselves from white capital and imperialism. But when I see you celebrate someone getting a job from white people over celebrating a woman who freed you, I am shaken.

I thought we were at a place where freedom means building our own empires, but you don’t know how to do that. Last week we found out that there is a black owned bank……you did not celebrate but started to tear it down… because success to you is when the master gives us a bit of crumbs.

You are not ready to build your own things, you are waiting to for the fairy godmother America to realise your dreams.


I think what is even scarier to watch is that we saw that Trevor Noahs job did nothing to improve the conditions for black people in SA, surely we saw that it was just a job. His job. This too is a job for Pearl Thusi. We are not celebrating Winnie Mandela Day and giving it to Pearl who has impacted our struggle how exactly? Wow.


p.s: I don’t know if you noticed but Terry Pheto moved to LA and even changed her image… kinda looks to me like holliwood wants black actors with a bit of white blood in them. 🙂



This is not an easy blog to write. I will have to put down all my defences and show you some of the parts of me that you may not see. If I could have an honest word with my haters (and lovers)…if I could have a moment where I could tell you the ABSOLUTE truth, I would tell you that actually, I am not that strong and you are one of the many things that hurt me. I know you see me being strong and brave all the time. You see me walk through hatred like I don’t give AF. But the truth is you never gave me the choice. I have no choice but to take what you serve, it is not up to me.

I have been like I am all my life so I am no stranger to the loneliness of always being ganged upon. I have always been a poet, and in our culture the role I play is to tell the truth. This is not some celebrity moment or a glamorous job…it is the ability to speak in a way that everybody is moved. It is a scary gift to have in all honesty. It means that I will never be really ‘liked.’ It means that I carry the truth and we all know that the truth can be brutal. This kind of gift/calling means that everybody who deals with me is hit in a deeply spiritual space, and there is nothing I can do about it. I make people confront their demons. I can be very uncomfortable and am incapable of shallow interactions. I wish I was sometimes. Sometimes I wish I could just be like everybody else and not see things the way I do, my life would be so much more peaceful: less painful.


I want you to know that despite this annoying ability of mine to touch on nerves and be a lightning rod for uncomfortable issues in this country, I am also just a girl…not just a girl, but a deeply sensitive girl. I feel deeply. So I can feel EVERYTHING you throw at me whether you say it out loud or not. When I walk into a space and can feel that I am not liked, it is quite a vulnerable moment for me, especially since I have nothing against you, nor have I ever, done anything to you. The fact that my words touch a nerve is not something I control. I need you to remember that before western influences we had people like me, iimbhongi who were believed to pass on messages from our elders. We had our own spiritual leaders and messengers outside the church. It is extremely difficult for me to be born in a time where Africans no longer understand my role. I live in a time where Africans demonise my role. If my voice did not have spirits in it, you would not hear it. I would simply fade into twitter. It is not easy to have a voice that is always under attack.

I just want to let you know that as much as I upset you, I too am not having an easy journey for I am constantly the victim of the backlash when you are not ready to hear something. I understand where you are coming from and accept that my ideas upset you. I respect your process in how you choose to deal with what I put on the table. Please understand that my words/tweets are not personal attacks just a commentary on what my eye is seeing. You do not have to listen to me, I don’t force my tweets onto your mentions. Just like you I am using twitter to express myself. Unfortunately or fortunately for me, my words always seem to hit a home run into your minds and spirits and thus my experience of twitter is quite ‘different.’ There is nothing I can do about this as I am unwilling to change my nature, personality or character to suit South Africans. Changing who I am to suit you would be too much of a compromise. So here I am stuck between a rock and a hard place. The only way I can get you to like/hear me is if I change and become more acceptable. It has not been an easy choice to make to stay true to myself.

Everything I tweet ends up in the media, but it is not the nice things I say….just the spicy ones. In all honesty, the media has portrayed me as a total asshole. I don’t think I would mind so much if I was actually an asshole but guys I’m actually not. The media has just chosen which parts of me to share, and they have chosen to ignore the beautiful parts.

I wrote this letter to tell you about my vulnerabilities. Besides you, my other vulnerability is those rape tweets. In all honesty, those tweets were an off guard moment. I did not see them coming. Much like the times I ‘rant’ about social ills, something else came over me. I am not ready to deal with them and would like to ask the media to respect my privacy. It is a very sore place still and very confusing. I did not mean to drop those bombs, they just exploded by themselves. Please stop tweeting me about it and asking me when you see me out.I am not ready to talk about it. Please, be gentle with me… I am actually NOT that strong.


edom is no longer white people it is now black people who stand in the way of our freedom. There is nothing worse than fighting for a people who defend the enemy. A lot of important conversations in South Africa are being silenced by black people who are either, out of fear or total admiration take offence when black people raise issues of oppression by the white man.


It goes without say that apartheid was a system with rules and regulations kept up by the white minority. After 94 we were supposed to address all these social rules, in our schools and in our work places. It was not just about making toilets multi racial. We were supposed to address all the shisms and isms in our education system particularly as that is where we were affected (infected) from a young age. We didn’t do that. Instead we occupied places and positions in the very same system built to oppress us.

We have now given birth to a new generation free of apartheid history (well sort of). Since these systems are still in place we are still very much living under apartheid conditions. The rules did not change. This new generation takes a stand and points out some of the areas we failed to address, and we know exactly what they are talking about. We too were exposed to the same racist school rules, but our spirits were not evolved enough to take on the fight. We are now dealing with the evolution of the black child and what do we do? We silence them.

There are black people in our midst who do not want to upset white power. Some of us are so afraid to offend the white man we are willing to wear helmets on our heads instead of telling white people that ‘this is my hair! Deal with it!’

Our forefathers did not have the privilege of standing up for blackness because they had guns held to their heads. We lost our identity because of whit brutality. We lost black pride because of a race of people who told us we were ugly and made us slaves.

The conversation we need to have with white people has to be firm and unapologetic. You do not define your boundaries with permission, you set the rules. That is the only way you will get taken seriously.

I am getting tired of these blacks who sugar coat important black issues because they are scared of losing their white fan base. These types of blacks are holding us back.

When someone has abused you, you do not smile at them and make excuses for them…if you want to rebuild that relationship, you lay down the law. Kahle nje.

We see you trying to be politically correct and self righteous but you are being counter revolutionary, especially those of you who now have white friends to defend. I also question what kind of a friend would have a problem with who you are and what you look like.

We all have different strengths. There are some conversations that the Rainbow Nation Defense Force needs to sit out. While you want to enjoy a fake PR movement, real South Africans are trying to build a South Africa that tolerates and respects different cultures.

We are not racist, nor anti white, we are pro mutual respect. Unlike you, we do not need nasal twangs and fake hair to fit into this society called new South Africa. The aim is to create a country where EVERYBODY is free to be themselves (without having to assimilate whiteness.)

So, if you are those blacks that live in the Rainbow Nation and speak good English with your white friends, please we beg you, sit the black consciousness debates out because everytime you speak we cringe.

How are we going to teach the white man how to treat us with you standing there protecting the master? The master will never change his ways if he see that even we are fighting amongst ourselves about the matter at hand.

We beg you, you can keep your white friends just PLEASE stop getting in the way of black people’s right to be black. For transformation to happen A LOT of changes are going to need to be made. The younger generation will continue to point black people to a more dignified and just way of life, when they do this, can we not stand in the way of our own freedom please?

Some of these rules are crazy, so these battles will look crazy…but these battles are important because we have the right to be black!

Black Hair Police



I found the minister’s statements regarding black hair in schools disappointing.

“Minister, Angie Motshekga, says there was nothing controversial about the Pretoria Girls High School hair policy”- SAFM #AMLIVE

I found it sad that a leader could not unpack this highly political issue. Let me start by saying, this is not a petty hair issue, this is an issue of identity. I wonder if people are aware that black hair grows out into an afro naturally. We black people are not born with the hair which many women have weaved/wigged on their heads. There are many deeply racist reasons that black women have a history of straightening their hair.

We come from a past were being black and anything that came with the black experience was demonised. Especially us dark skinned sisters.

White people who have always, been in control of the media and all streams of information have set a benchmark of long straight hair being termed beauty. We have never been exposed to natural African attributes being termed as beautiful. We have even had to claim the beauty of our bodies with coming up with names like ‘bootylicious’ and ‘thick.’ These words did not just come about, they are the expression of the black girl saying ‘I am beautiful too.’


Our hair has been under attack for Centuries. We are the only race in the entire world that has hair like ours. It is what makes us unique. I do not see white people being ashamed of their hair, I do not see Indians being ashamed of their hair. So why should the black child be ashamed of their hair? Every day the white child gets out of bed and looks in the mirror and sees someone perfect, because the world has told the white child she is perfect. When the black child gets up every day, she looks in the mirror and has to straighten her hair and wish they were a little lighter skinned, because the world has told the black child that long, wavy hair and fair skin is beautiful.

Why is it that the white child can just wake up, tie their hair in a ponytail and go to school and they are fine, but the black child has to change their natural hair to suit school regulations? What are we teaching the black child?


Why is it, that we black people are always trying to fix ourselves to look white in a black dominated country? We understand if the schools are saying No Fancy Hairstyles at school, that is understandable, but our natural hair is not a fancy hairstyle and it is not our fault that our hair is unapologetically and wildly beautiful. Why would you want to rob the black child of their right to be black, and the right to feel beautiful in their own hair and skin?

Having straight hair is also perceived as being more sophisticated, it has even affected our ability to earn income. You are believed to be rich if you have a nice weave. The less African you look the richer you seem. Are these not stereotypes we ought to be breaking down?


If ANC was more pan africanist we would be in a better position because we would have leaders who know that EVERYTHING starts with self love and self belief. But unfortunately, we have apologist grown ups who listen to ‘Clever Whites’ and follow their narrative. If you are so concerned about seeing the blackboard are you going to put a height policy on all the tall pupils too?


We should not even be having this debate, this was a simple issue of setting the record straight:

Every black child has the right to be black…. leave the childrens’ hair alone.

And Madam minister…it IS controversial that a black child can’t adorn their natural hair in a black country.

Voting DAnger

Who you vote for is your right and your secret. We now live in a democratic country where everybody has the right to vote and make themselves count in our young democracy. Your vote is your signature on the constitution.

Considering our past, voting is a big deal in this country…it matters WHO we vote for.


I am however uncomfortable with the number of black people advocating for the DA to lead South Africa. Wether we like to admit it or not, The DA is a white party. Yes it has a lot of coloured and black window dressing, but the core of the DA is white. DA absorbed the voters who used to vote for the NP. The NP need I remind you, had this country burning up in flames and war. When white people rule, black people suffer. White people have been oppressing black people since they got here. They set up inhumane social systems which robbed us of our land, identity and dignity. Looking back on our history, we can be certain that white people are incapable of leading a black majority. You cannot be the leader of a people you don’t even know. Buying fried chicken for hungry black people to campaign for you shows us exactly the calibre of people we are dealing with, manipulators.


When will black people realise that white people are here to protect their own interests, and those interests do not include us? In the past 500 years that the white people have been here they have managed to take over 70% of our economy. So essentially, we are poor BECAUSE they are rich. They have taken everything that belonged to us and use us as slaves to maintain their machines. What do you think is going to happen when they resume leadership? White people don’t even visit their black friends in the townships, they do not know the black experience nor do they care about it. Do you seriously think putting white people in power is going to benefit black people? Think again and look back a mere 30 years when armies where in our neighbourhoods, when we didn’t have access to anything, and when our men were thrown from the 9th floor at John Vorster Square. When white people were in power just 30 years ago they pushed us all into ghettos that had no decent sanitation and we built big beautiful houses for them. (the same ones they still occupy) Then they made our women clean those houses and pick up after their shit. They made our men manicure those gardens and pick up after their dogs shit. And they paid these people with…..not much. Hence these people remained in their mkhukhus instead of moving up a ladder into better jobs. Think back 30 years ago when we lost thousands of men in mining accidents. Men walked around with no limbs and lost their sources of income….which was not much. Because white people don’t think black people need to be paid as much as them.


DA wants to do away with affirmative action. Do you know why? So that they are not bound to employing black people and can revert back to their corrupt ways of nepotism in the business field. They keep shouting people must be hired on merit but if you look in many industries, especially property, you will realise that a lot of these white men and women who occupy these positions are not qualified either. In a black majority country, white people need to understand that it is natural that blacks will dominate. If our white people want white domination, they can go to Europe and lead there.


I think that DA is fine to exist as a party that represents white people. We do not have the same ways and cultures so white people certainly need a platform and voice so their views can be heard, as for the black people in DA, I don’t know what you are doing there. I truly don’t. I thought that by now you had realised that Mmusi Maimane is a marketing scheme to attract the black vote….hence LIndiwe Mazibuko a more credible leader walked away. Herman Mashaba got his ego played with by the white people, we are shocked but we will move on.


Power is in the economy, currently that is a white people position. Corporate SA is owned by white people. When you as a black person vote DA, you are just adding numbers. I realise that it is your right to vote for whoever you want, but I just want to point out that one vote of yours is going to affect us all. Please choose wisely?


Who we Africans will be led by is our conversation and we will find our leaders amongst ourselves. There are a few black led parties on that ballot and wherever you look in the world, politicians are corrupt. Nothing will ever be more corrupt than how white people have taken control over our economy.


My vote cannot go to white people because they have had 500 years to demonstrate their leadership and have failed dismally. I am smart enough to realise that the ANC inherited a rotten system, my disappointment with the ANC lies in that they maintained a toxic system to benefit themselves….instead of working to improve the lives of the majority in this land. I am bitter too that they have traumatised the black people so much, that black people are now running towards the DAnger we should be running from. All these black DA voters are a product of the frustration with a removed, superficial and celebrity crazy government. ANC has created this monster.


The political arena is fresh and ready to seed new political parties, new leaders who are concerned with the needs of the people. This is not the time to be moving backwards. Your vote affects us ALL.


Rhodes University: State of Uncleanliness

It is now mid July and I have been frustrated (all year) about the state of uncleanliness at Gavin Reilly Post Graduate Village. I keep complaining but get dismissed by the warden Proffesor Juma. Last week when I complained, instead of addressing the issues raised, I was called in for a meeting. The junior warden Yanela said that it is too late to complain as it is now July. Wow. Despite the fact that I have been complaining all year.


When I moved into Gavin Reilly I was shown a few rooms and I could not live there as they looked like flats in a slum. I finally had to settle when I realised that all the rooms were in a less than acceptable state. I had just driven 12hrs from Johannesburg and it was night time and I was in no state to throw a fuss. Also I had been awarded a scholarship so I did not want to ruffle any feathers. But after much thought, I cannot be held hostage by this scholarship and be made to live like this.


I gave into the filth, used my sleeping bag and the next morning went to get cleaning agents. I spent my 1st day here scrubbing grimy walls and washing my carpets. The grease on my kitchen walls was impossible so I ended up buying gift wrapping paper to make wall paper. This was so that I could cook my food without looking at old, brown grease smeared on my wall. Then there was the oven which had black old grease. The baking tray was so filthy, it was like it had grilled many meals but had never been cleaned. There were thick layers and clumps of old burnt oil which I couldn’t even get clean with all my cleaning agents, including bleach. It was like the stove had been used all year or 2 without ever being cleaned. The inside of the oven was a blackness of dirt. That is where I was expected to cook my food. I complained and they replaced the oven immediately. I had won one small battle.

As for the filthy carpets, in the 1st week they shampooed them…..that was the last time. This is now something I do myself on all 4s with a brush, despite the fact they have machines to shampoo our carpets which get used once a year.


The bigger problem however was the infestation of cockroaches (owing to the state of filth.) Gavin Reilly has such a big cockroach problem I am surprised the staff was pretending not to know this when I raised it. Initially they made me feel like nobody else had the problem until I started speaking to other students. The other students were also equally mortified at the cockroach problem here. I heard stories of groups of cockroaches leisurely walking on walls. One student could even hear them come out and scratch on her walls and bed at night. She went as far as videoing them and sending the video to Juma. My frustrated neighbour knocked on my door 4 days ago in a complete state about the cockroaches. The grown man was close to tears saying the situation was just getting worse.


As usual, I googled every remedy to kill cockroaches, I found my budget being affected as I had to keep buying tea tree oil (not cheap) and have cockroach powder all over my room. But to add insult to injury, I have an asthmatic history so the more I sprayed doom, the sicker I got. My chest would act up from all the chemicals in my room and the constant spraying of this stuff that I KNOW aggravates my asthma. We managed to get our rooms fumigated but in true Rhodes style, they do it once and expect the problem to go away. I do not want to live with cockroaches so I use this fumigation solution frequently, however last time they complained. I’m not sure why because, if they know this space is filthy, then they should know that filth attracts cockroaches.


Now I am dealing with my bathroom walls. I have been complaining about these all year too. Imagine a bathroom wall which has seen thousands of showers from many people without being regularly cleaned. Can you imagine the black grime which gathers in between the tiles? Well, that is where I am expected to wash. When I moved in, the corners of my bath were peeling and it looked really ugly. Nothing you would want to bath in. In fact I only shower here, so that I don’t get to see the walls. The maintenance people came and did a half job and only sealed the bath corners. They failed to scrape all the old grime and dirt off and reseal the walls. In other words, the whiteness of the freshly sealed bath magnified the state of blackness on the walls. And every time I am in there I wonder whose filth I am washing in. I googled this too and found that if I use lemon and vinegar on my walls, it cleans old grime. I showed the housekeeping staff my new walls and gave them the remedy so they could fix other students bathrooms. From what I heard there was a student whose bath was so brown even the staff was complaining. Eeeuww!!!!! But how does the staff and maintenance even allow it to get there? I could not get it clean between the tiles and this issue needs maintenance to come scrape it off. I feel like I have truly done my bit and tried everything, I need to be met half way. I want to enjoy a nice bath in a clean bathroom, is that too much to ask?


When I moved here, I was shocked to learn that we do not at least get housekeeping once a week. This is a shared space it is the university’s responsibility to ensure that the living conditions are acceptable. If there are about 70 units here and we all pay R42 000 a year then I do not understand why they do not cater for housekeeping. They are dealing with students who are here to learn, their focus may not be on housekeeping and as a result we now have a cockroach manifestation problem accumulating from a state of uncleanliness. It is unfair that this issue is not addressed. It is not nice to live in dirt.


I do not want to have meetings with you professor……I want to live in a CLEAN space, WITHOUT COCKROACHES!